I’ve learned to put a smile on my face even when things aren’t going quite how I want them to.
But sometimes that just sucks.
I want to be able to sulk, and just feel bad.
But it’s not that I don’t feel bad, or can’t feel bad. I do. But I can’t show it. It’s next to impossible for me to really show it. The only emotion I show is happiness and anger. That’s it.
Why? That’s one question I’d like to know.
For instance, at work today I kind of wanted someone to possibly notice that something wasn’t quite right. I kind of hinted at it saying ‘I might not be in the best mood today’ and ‘Don’t blame me if I’m not quite as upbeat today’. People asked why but when I said I had a bad night they didn’t inquire anything more. Hmph.
What’s nice though is that I do have some friends that know what’s going on and they’ve been keeping me company through texts and snap chatting. So that’s great. I really do have some awesome friends.
Just got to keep that smile on your face I guess